Change your destiny.
As the third child in the Carter family, I always felt a little on the outside of the Carter charm. I worked hard and played harder, but I was getting tired of the same old scene. I was more than Jess Carter’s little sister, I wanted to be me. Pam Carter.
It was time for a change and I wanted to be set free.
I knew it needed to happen. After years of one night stands and too brief sexual encounters, an accident brought Fate to me. To resist his charm was my penance for years of misbehavior. The temptation to give in to my desire haunted me for almost two years, until an uncontrollable situation started the twisted path to test my resolve further.
What would it take to claim my independence and be a new, improved woman?
I worked for Jacob Vincent, horror novelist extraordinaire, as his personal assistant, but I was adamant that the relationship remain professional. Jacob had dark demons and I couldn’t bring him into the light…or could I? Life was springing forth for me; changes were coming. I knew it was time to be set free from who I had been and who I was to start fresh with who I wanted to be. I just didn’t know where to start to change my destiny.
“He
made me want him.”
made me want him.”
Jacob
sucked in a breath. “You wa…,”
sucked in a breath. “You wa…,”
Holding
up a hand, I cut him off.
up a hand, I cut him off.
“He
led me to think the attraction was mutual. He played me.” My voice was soft,
questioning, and the darkness of Jacob’s eyes was slowing fading.
led me to think the attraction was mutual. He played me.” My voice was soft,
questioning, and the darkness of Jacob’s eyes was slowing fading.
“Why’d you do that, bastard?” Jacob
narrowed his eyes at the Irish man for a split second before returning his gaze
to me.
narrowed his eyes at the Irish man for a split second before returning his gaze
to me.
“The thing is, it wasn’t only once.
He kissed me. Twice. No three times. Even since I’ve been here with his fiancé
right under his nose, he’s kissed me again.”
He kissed me. Twice. No three times. Even since I’ve been here with his fiancé
right under his nose, he’s kissed me again.”
“Better stop kissing around, Jacob,”
Paddy laughed. I stepped toward Jacob again and he took another step back. I
stopped.
Paddy laughed. I stepped toward Jacob again and he took another step back. I
stopped.
“He flirts with me, and I try so
hard to ignore it, like I’m insensitive to it. Like it doesn’t affect me. But
it does, Jacob. You need to stop it.” I looked directly into his wide eyes.
hard to ignore it, like I’m insensitive to it. Like it doesn’t affect me. But
it does, Jacob. You need to stop it.” I looked directly into his wide eyes.
“Or is it just that the homegrown
apple is fun to play with? I must not have feelings because I’m from a small
town?”
apple is fun to play with? I must not have feelings because I’m from a small
town?”
“I never said that,” he spat at me.
“Well, you didn’t defend it.” My
arms flew out again in my anger. I stepped forward and Jacob stepped back,
hitting his bare back on the ropes. He was pinned.
arms flew out again in my anger. I stepped forward and Jacob stepped back,
hitting his bare back on the ropes. He was pinned.
“And to top it all off. As if
finding out he was engaged wasn’t enough, the sting of that wasn’t painful
enough, knowing I’d kissed him, he had to rub it in further. Stake to the heart
by ear-piercing sex with her under my room. Touching her. Kissing her.” I was
close enough to touch him, but I held back and Jacob leaned further against the
rings.
finding out he was engaged wasn’t enough, the sting of that wasn’t painful
enough, knowing I’d kissed him, he had to rub it in further. Stake to the heart
by ear-piercing sex with her under my room. Touching her. Kissing her.” I was
close enough to touch him, but I held back and Jacob leaned further against the
rings.
“You are a bastard, Jacob.” The
Irish brogue was full of sympathy.
Irish brogue was full of sympathy.
“Hit me,” Jacob said calmly, his
tone full of venom.
tone full of venom.
“No.” I replied.
“Hit me,” he said, closing his eyes
as if he begged me to do it.
as if he begged me to do it.
“Never.” I softened my tone.
“Hit me!” His angry voice was
rising.
rising.
“Never, Jacob.” I practically
whispered and he took in a breath at the soft sound of his name on my lips.
whispered and he took in a breath at the soft sound of his name on my lips.
“I said, hit me, dammit.”
“I’m not her, Jacob.”
“Hit me,” he screamed in my face. I
literally felt a breeze from his mouth and although I was shaking a little at
this point, I responded calmly one last time.
literally felt a breeze from his mouth and although I was shaking a little at
this point, I responded calmly one last time.
“It would never be like that with
me, Jacob,” and I raised my hand. He flinched in anticipation and I rubbed my
shaky fingers down the side of his sweaty face. I slid them down his cheek to
cup his neck then traced the bruise with my thumb where Lucy had bit him, and
his breathing began to accelerate. His solid chest, which had been rising with
each response, was rapidly moving up and down now. I continued to move my hand
over his hard chest muscles and I stopped over his heart, which I could feel
beating rapidly through his skin. I traced a heart with my fingers around the
tattoo.
me, Jacob,” and I raised my hand. He flinched in anticipation and I rubbed my
shaky fingers down the side of his sweaty face. I slid them down his cheek to
cup his neck then traced the bruise with my thumb where Lucy had bit him, and
his breathing began to accelerate. His solid chest, which had been rising with
each response, was rapidly moving up and down now. I continued to move my hand
over his hard chest muscles and I stopped over his heart, which I could feel
beating rapidly through his skin. I traced a heart with my fingers around the
tattoo.
Change your destiny.
My
eyes leapt upward to his face, which was filled with fear. There was no other
descriptor. I had not hit him, but he appeared more frightened than as if I
had.
eyes leapt upward to his face, which was filled with fear. There was no other
descriptor. I had not hit him, but he appeared more frightened than as if I
had.
I pulled my finger back and stepped
out of his space. His breathing was still jagged and he was still pressed into
the corner.
out of his space. His breathing was still jagged and he was still pressed into
the corner.
“I’ll be up front when you’re
ready.” I turned to the encouraging partner.
ready.” I turned to the encouraging partner.
“Thank you. That was exhilarating.”
I smiled sweetly and exited the ring. As I walked to the entrance area, I heard
the clap of hands behind me and Paddy spoke.
I smiled sweetly and exited the ring. As I walked to the entrance area, I heard
the clap of hands behind me and Paddy spoke.
“Damn. I like her. Why aren’t you
marrying her?”
marrying her?”
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I’d like to say I was always a writer. I’d also like to say that I wrote every day of my life since a child. That I took the teaching advice I give my former students because writing every day improves your writing. I’d like to say I have my ten-thousand hours that makes me a proficient writer. But I can’t say any of those things. I did dream of writing the “Great American Novel” until one day a friend said: Why does it have to be great? Why can’t it just be good and tell a story?
As a teenager, I wrote your typical love-angst poetry that did occasionally win me an award and honor me with addressing my senior high school class at our Baccalaureate Mass. I didn’t keep a journal because I was too afraid my mom would find it in the mattress where I kept my copy of Judy Blume’s Forever that I wasn’t allowed to read as a twelve year old.
I can say that books have been my life. I’m a reader. I loved to read the day I discovered “The Three Bears” as a first grader, and ever since then, the written word has been my friend. Books were an escape for me. An adventure to the unknown. A love affair I’d never know. I could be lost for hours in a book.
So why writing now? I had a story to tell. It haunted me from the moment I decided if I just wrote it down it would go away. But it didn’t. Three years after writing the first draft, a sign (yes, I believe in them) told me to fix up that draft and work the process to have it published. That’s what I did. But one story let to another, and another, and another. Then a new idea came into my head and a new storyline was created.
I was accused (that’s the correct word) of having an overactive imagination as a child, as if that was a bad thing. I’ve also been accused of having the personality of a Jack Russell terrier, full of energy, unable to relax, and always one step ahead. What can I say other than I have stories to tell and I think you’ll like them. If you don’t, that’s okay. We all have our book boyfriends. We all have our favorites. Whatever you do, though, take time for yourself and read a book.
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